Dollar store diva

I went to the dollar store and bought nail clippers, a hair and tooth brush then went out to groom. My hands,ragged and chapped,  improved with cleaning and filing my nails. I brushed my hair and pulled it into a pony tail.

I walked down to the goodwill and found a pair of cheap black shoes for work tomorrow. I bucked up and decided that a new black shirt was also in order.

Next on the list was the purchase of shampoo, conditioner, tooth powder. While at the market I realized just how hungry I'd become. I grabbed some fruit but then logic reminded me that protein is survival and I ordered a sandwich. Sitting outside I ate half, wrapped the remainder for later before going back in to use the washroom.
I cleaned my teeth.
When I've had sudden change offered into my life, what more can one do than care for immediate concerns. Cleanliness, nutrition, sunshine are all forms of salvation.
In need of a shower but little else, I wait out the remainder of the afternoon in a book.
Hopefully tomorrow brings me closer to a home.

Once more with gusto

I have been sunny days
And ached winter's song

Now in this strange bliss
I wonder just when I went wrong

I love you
Against the odds
Lost more than I bargained for
No chips left to play with
Every dollar spent

The odds I've set against the rail

Life in pieces

You will be there
A story
Told by victors
With no remorse

Longtime gone

Oh as I admit the fallacy of my lingering solitude I force the quiet to note my hollow yells.

The remains of my pride tattered

Ka-Boom

It's late
I was almost asleep on the couch two hours ago
not that I count things like hours of sleep
or measure time in the degree of the sun
that all passed long ago

meandering across the skin
I smell lingering fatigue

There's not too much to say. I lost whatever that something was that held me together it just poofed and now I have the strangest sense that all that's left is a shell of what once was, action set in motion carried out over routine. Less and less oh as the sun's rays wane and I know there is light gaining just beyond the edge of the horizon.

secrets, I used to tell them

I lost all sense to beauty

my integrity strapped

incumbent

don't ask me to stay

because I cannot go

don't ask me to come

I must stay

the great divide

everything that keeps me together
falls apart

countdown

10 weeks left this year

this was supposed to be a banner year
and it has been

only
rolled up and into tube
packed up and away
along side the dust bunnies
long
time ago
I believed
in dancing

turtles all the way down

I am planning on going back to school. what a dream of the quiet simple life I hold dear to my breast.

they ask complicated questions like "what is your current mailing address" as if I am just supposed to be able to rattle that off easy as pie.

anyhow.

I am not homeless just don't have an address or a car.

my heart breaks against the walls of my chest and beats with the longing of a long harbored barge. 

I use people up

wear them out
listless lack of ambition

I spent my aptitude
on youth

Burn the Holdings

My life can fit under a table
except the horse
he is too tall to settle for living under a table

I don't know how I fee;
about the not going as planned
the quick decisions
and the sudden bursts of make a choice now

but I do know
the hunger for sharp and hot
and desire for the long slow regeneration
as skin pulls back together
seams tight back to itself

not today instead more coffee