Distraction: I live for carrots

Wrapped in mid-terms and daily markers for success. I am at coffee for a few hours before work in order to finish a paper, read a bunch of words, and improve upon my spotify list. I have been moderately successful in that I just bought a ticket to New York for the week before christmas.

I have secrets that are wrapped into my core being. I remember the sound of laughter's sharp edge, ice in my veins, and the burden of proof. Always being wrong, the assumption of immorality, my personal inability to be a "woman." This brutal cycle will rip even the strongest person apart.

What has been on my mind is this one day a few months ago sitting in a car with a friend as rain dropped in huge drops. There is this warm comfort of hazed windows, tea, puddles. More we talked about this total jack hat of the girl-friend activation system. If you are not familiar with his amazing work you should goggle that. More recently my rage has become directed towards this particular cro magnum shit repository.

It's so fun to read. I hope you enjoy it.

I think my obsession with repression and male-culture is that I hear familiar echos in all of this and I need to know, I need to feel, I need to be aware of the underculture of fear. A lot of these articles and Game systems are about men being afraid of being alone. So they get lost in sex and fuck as many girls as possible all the while deriding the same girls they fuck as sluts.

This attitude is coming from a place of incompetence. What will happen when one of the four girls getting banged gets tired of the bull shit? doesn't matter! I've got game and will just find more to fill the void.

The bottom is if someone is unable to form lasting emotional bonds to other human beings they are emotional cripples.

Go fuck your heart stump.

Today is national domestic violence awareness day.

It will affect one in three women.

So don't ever imagine that any lady is a fucking princess in a goddamn ivory shell. She has seen more, felt more, lived more and has a strong core that is resilient beyond measure.

She is also crazy hot and in charge of the evolution of our species so behave